exerpt from a list, a long time ago:

9) imagine creating strong visual, emotional memories. imagine feeling happy, feeling like this is a good thing. feeling wonderful. wonderful music, wonderful faces, wonderful conversation. imagine you, imagine me. now imagine it all was just crammed into a balloon. everything. and one day you just pop that balloon. it was all a lie. we were based on a lie. those memories mean nothing, they were fake. there was never anything there at all. i don't care if i'm crazy for recalling it, i don't care if i'm insane for telling you: this is how it is this time. this is how it really is. "you're only what i see sometimes." all you have to do is tell me what you are thinking. it's not that hard, don't be afraid. i miss you and you and you and you. but only sometimes. and you, always.