excuses

and now
all i see-
faint flicks
of smoke
filling the air,
dancing around
my lungs
like rough patches
of leather

falling
apart.

and no,
i don't like to hear it.
the sound of a
silver spoon
in the oven-
crackling to its
own beat
like a comet
chasing the sky-
viscid, and ambiguous;

all the men on the
moon couldn't
save you
now.

and the metallic
shift of beads
falling-
like a rain stick
down my throat and
neck-

forgetting that it's only
today.
tomorrow isn't that far
away.

the impact of this railroad
cannot be gainsaid,
even after all the planks
you've laid down so
haphazardly;

i could travel
forever,
my omnipotent
scientist
of soil.